New Beginnings

OK….now I started thinking (dangerous thing I realize) if I were to write a new blog, what would it be about? Only one thing comes to mind….New Beginnings!

Recently I made a reconnection. It is with a beautiful woman, who at one point in my life was close enough to touch and we did. There wasn’t just a physical touch, but a touching of the heart. But there was a problem; I was not going to allow this wonderful person into my darkened world. It wasn’t that I didn’t have a good heart; it was that she did and I would not allow the corruption of that heart.

There are folks in the world who are inherently good. They have had a good upbringing, taught morals and values, live within their means and love so genuine that you want to protect every part of the fragile heart they possess. SHE is one of those people, was then and still is. She is wiser for having been through her trials but she still loves just as genuine and just as hard. She is back in my life.

Back to the reconnection. Through numerous Facebook connections and now through the telephone conversations that have lasted for hours on end I have not only reconnected to this beautiful woman, but to my feelings of joy. There have been feelings of joy, hope, caring, happiness, laughter and more joy. Recently I wrote a poem with opening line, “Phone rings, it is you again, my secret path to myself.” It is about her and how SHE has brought back the pre-darkness days of laughter and happiness that I have not known since my world went black at 16 years old.

Thank you BABY for making me smile again. If that is all I receive from this bountiful gift of you, then it is enough. I have been given my ability to hope and to dream and to feel the newness of a New Beginning.

The beauty of a new beginning is that every love song makes me think of you, every couple I see makes me want to hold you tight and every church I pass brings the thoughts of new and future possibilities. The reconnection has been with you, with me and with God.

I just pray this New Beginning comes with a Happy Ending!