Decisions

Decisions are nothing more than choices, pro and con, that need a resolution. The decisions we make today can affect the rest of our lives. I have been spinning in circles the last little while trying to decide whether to go back home to the south or to transition myself as a Californian. I have been living in Southern California for the last 7 years and people have made me feel so at home in an area where friendliness and southern hospitality is not on the Welcome Sign. But I have made this my temporary home until December / January.

It is time to go back and start my professional life. It is time to go home and watch my other two nephews grow into men. It is time to make sure my grandmother knows her grandson only has wanted to make her proud after the years of worry I put upon her. I want to have lunch with her and talk about my dad and the old days. I want to take my mother to BINGO and to buy her crazy Lottery Scratchers while she pelts me with guilt grenades. She is my mom and I love her even at worst, cause she loved me at my worst.

But mostly, I want to start this life I am discovering with a beautiful, giving, classy, woman. She has been put in my life to help center and focus my happiness in the right direction. I want nothing more than to make her happy for as long as she will allow it. Baby, you rock my world! You also make me smile like the Cheshire Cat. I can hear your smile, feel your touch, and hear your heartbeat through each email and phone call. The first touch after twenty years will be terrifying, with a beautiful side of bliss.

Get here, get here when you can!
Me